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 My Drew
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| I didnt know two weeks without Drew would be this miserable. I miss him so much its unbelieveable. I've wrote him every day so thats like 9 or 10 letters already. Im pretty sure my friends are sick of me talking about him. I cant help it tho, everything reminds me of him.
I went to the fair last weekend with Shandi and her boyfriend. I felt like a third wheel the whole day. I mean they where both extreamly nice and all but i just felt like i was a little annoying tag-a-long. I want to go to the fair again either tonight or tomarrow but if i do then ill either be a third wheel with Shandi and Brian or a third wheel with Leah and Daneale. I cant just hang out with friends, they've always got their boyfriend or girlfriend with them and thats not the most comfortable of situations for me.
Oh yea, Leah is back to school. Im so happy that she is back. I really missed her. Now i have 2 people to talk to at school. You know, if Shandi and Leah had'nt come back to school, i would have been compleatly alone, since no one else seems to make the effort to speak to me. I am truely gratefull for them. If it wasnt for them, i would be truely depressed. I mean this is would be my life if they wherent there: Drew left for 2 months, classes are extreamly hard, no friends or anyone to talk to, cant go anywhere, and in my past time i do suduku puzzels. They are keeping me from being in a major state of deppression.
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Jarhead (Full Screen)
By Jake Gyllenhaal, Scott MacDonald, Peter Sarsgaard, Lo Ming, Jamie Foxx, Kevin Foster (III), Lucas Black (II), Brian Geraghty, Damion Poitier, Riad Galayini, Craig Coyne, Katherine Randolph, Rini Bell, Dendrie Taylor, James Morrison (II), Arman Zajic, Brianne Davis, Brian Casey (II), Ernest Ozuna, Tyler Sedustine
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Back again. Well yesterday i didnt go to school at all. I was down at M.E.P.S. all day (Military Enlistment Program Station) with Drew. Then we went to the airport for a few hours till Drew got sent off to Chacago. That was one of the most miserable days of my life. Watching the one you love most in the world be sent off for two months is aful. I was there with his mom, dad, step mom, half-sister, and my mom. I am so used to seeing him every day, and now that he is going to be that far away for that long of a time, it just make me sick to my stomatch. The only contact we have is writing lettler, so i figuar that ill end up writing him every day. He needs the support.
Well school has started. My first class is pretty cool. Its an Ag. class and since the teacher is out due to her baby we have a sub. for the next month. Im glad thats my first class so if i dont get my sleep or dont get my homework done i can always do it there. Then i have my Psycology class. I dont know anyone in there but im so interested in the topic that it really doesnt matter that much. Then there's Wellness. I have that class with Shandi. Im so glad she came back. That class would have sucked if she wasnt in there otherwise. After that is Envirnmental Science. I had the same teacher last year, just a different subject, and i didnt like him at all. Then English 11. That class i hate the most. I dont like anyone in there. I dont like the subject, and i dont like the teacher, shes very strict so i know right there that ill do horribly. Finally there is Geometry. Im not to sure about the subject. I havnt figuared it out if its hard or not, but other then that it is alright i guess.
I can tell this year that most of my friends have deserted me. I know i really dont care if i make any or not but i really dont like being so lonely in most of my classes. Now that Drew has graduated, i dont have anyone there to talk to or really meet after my classes. I would like to concentrate more on my school work this year so i wont have much to do next year but it would be nice if i made some friends on the way. For some reason i dont think thats going to happen tho. I seem to have become more soft spoken lately so there for no one else will make the effort.
†ashley† | | |
| Holy shit its been a long time since ive been on here eh. Well to update a little, its the end of the summer and I really dont want to go back to school. Most of my friends have either graduated by now or dont have anything to do with me anymore. I was kind of hopeing that Shandi would go back so I would have someone to talk to again.
Oh yea, Drew and I are engaged now. He's getting sent off to bootcamp the first. I really dont want him to go but I have no say so in that department. I have just realized that my typing really sucks ass man. I haven't been on the computer in so long that I sware that this little paragraph is taking me a half an hour, that's pretty bad.
Well, I just got back from vacation about a week ago. I went with my parents, grandparents, and Drew. We went up north to New York, Maine, and places like that. I didn't like New York at all. It was way over populated and dirty. I might have had a better experence up there if we didnt end up in Harlem or the Bronks. Now thats one place i dont want to be. The more up-scale parts of the state where nice tho. Oh and I did see my first black, transvestite, prostitute at a gas station. That was pretty interesting.
I finally got off probation during May, and was able to get my permit as well. I can get my licences near the end of November now.
Well, if anyone wants to talk or hang out before the summer is up, then call me. If you know my home phone then you might want to try that first. My cell phone is usually dead or I can't find it, and if you do call my cell, dont leave a message. I never ceck them so there is no point of it.
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| too all of you peoples, hello again... for some reason i decided read my comments and lots of you wanted me to do an entry, so here is goes... well im back at the high school now... i hate it... too many people that i liked have left or just flat out dont talk to me anymore... i want to go back to dry vally... there i had friends and the teachers that accually gave a shit about you and helped... im failing classes now... i have realized now that i have more aquantensis then friends... someone who i thought of as a brother hasnt said a word to me for about a month now... i was mad at first... now it just hurts... i say i dont care and to hell with em... i miss haveing someone to joke around with and someone that will listen and give advice... i dont understand when i look at you, you wont look back... its confusing how you seemed to dissapear and yet i still see you between every class... i was never mad at you for being with her... i just thought you could do better... i didnt mean to stop talking... its just that... you wouldnt look at me, as if you didnt want me to be there right then... i dont think we could be as close as we were... it would be awquard... eh, good things never last... on the other hand... me and drew are back together... we are doing great... except for the fact that hes being shipped out this year... ive kind of given a little though to joing some sort of military force and be a nurse... or what ever they call the people that take care of the ones wounded in war... i would have to go into practice of it but ill try... anyways... i guess this is all for now... maybe ill write again sometime soon... i dunno...
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